I love my family
Not that this is a newsflash, but I really, really love my family. Mark is a helpful, wonderful guy and an adoring, playful father. And while Jaxon gives me a run for my money sometimes, he has a sweetness and charm that I cherish. Asher just hit the most adorable baby stage, 18 mths, where he playfully totters everywhere jabbering in delight at the tiniest things. Taken separately, each member of my family is great, but when we are together, we're awesome. There is something about family time, playing, wrestling, singing, playing games, or reading books that seems surreal. I often just sit back in awe of the love and happiness that we feel together. Of course someone will get a rug burn or we'll have cranial collisions occasionally, but the sadness and pain are tempered by the love of parents, and brother. (Asher gives really sweet kisses)
Yesterday I found out that our next son (Due Nov 5) will not have hemophilia like his brothers. Instantly, emotions of gratitude, relief, and astonishment rolled over me, bringing me to tears. While hemophilia rarely affects my boys lives, aside from occasional inconvenience, it is largely an unknown to me still. I have only 5 years experience treating Jaxon, and he has another 70 years to go. Thus, it's not for me that I celebrate the results of this amnio, it is for this child. But, I also celebrate the lives of my two boys, who wear the medic alert ankle bracelets. Perhaps hemophilia is one of the reasons I love them so much. Of course it is, it's part of who they are, and I love who they are.
In the end I see the grace of God giving me this awesome feeling of love for our family. For me, it's unexpectedly real and powerful. I look forward to watching our family grow.
Yesterday I found out that our next son (Due Nov 5) will not have hemophilia like his brothers. Instantly, emotions of gratitude, relief, and astonishment rolled over me, bringing me to tears. While hemophilia rarely affects my boys lives, aside from occasional inconvenience, it is largely an unknown to me still. I have only 5 years experience treating Jaxon, and he has another 70 years to go. Thus, it's not for me that I celebrate the results of this amnio, it is for this child. But, I also celebrate the lives of my two boys, who wear the medic alert ankle bracelets. Perhaps hemophilia is one of the reasons I love them so much. Of course it is, it's part of who they are, and I love who they are.
In the end I see the grace of God giving me this awesome feeling of love for our family. For me, it's unexpectedly real and powerful. I look forward to watching our family grow.
2 comments:
Jess, this is beautiful. I loved seeing how you responded to this news. You'll be an awesome mother of three soon!
Alisa, thanks for your kind words. I have been meaning to go back and rewrite this post because I was afraid it came off as sentimental and entirely dependent on the outcome of our test. But, it's not. I think a different outcome would have been hard, but I still would have the same feelings.
Anyway, thanks for your comment!
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